I’m back!

Sup Yalls! It has certainly been a while! My apologies for that. Things have been quite hectic. I finished my trip in Africa, got home, and immediately plummeted into deep depression. I stopped taking my meds, I talked to no one, and I has just a fireball of pure anger fueled by the hatred ofContinue reading “I’m back!”

Short note

I used to think that being unloved by the one you love most was the worst feeling. Now I realize it is knowing that you hurt the one you love and what’s done is done and you can’t do anything about it.

A long update

WEll it has been a while. I must admit I have been extremely low and had no motivation to continue this. But it is best for me (and hopefully others) to keep this blog thing going. Now where to start lol. I am currently on my way to South Africa to volunteer at the CangoContinue reading “A long update”

BPD and Jealousy

One of the most prominent but also one of the most unhealthy aspects of BPD is our jealousy. BPD jealousy does not have any ulterior malintent motive, but rather more a jealousy of hurt and being scared. Having BPD means in our past we most likely experienced an event that caused us immense pain, guilt,Continue reading “BPD and Jealousy”

Yes, another update

Hey yalls! So I once again found myself in the hospital. I was having horrible realization moments and got so overwhelmed. My self loathing increased. I just couldn’t take it anymore. I got tired of trying. I was done with life and everything. I was so alone. I never before just had so much intentContinue reading “Yes, another update”

The positives of BPD

Lately I have posted a lot about BPD leaning toward the negative side. How about some positives? There are positive quality traits to someone who has BPD too! Even if you are untreated, you still have these symptoms and qualities! People with BPD are extremely loving. Our emotions are all consuming and to the extreme,Continue reading “The positives of BPD”

Is BPD developed or not?

There is still a debate whether BPD is something you are born with, or if it is developed. Personally I think mine was developed, what do you think for yourself? Did these happen to you for BPD to have been developed in your lifetime? Experienced abandonment or abuse when younger Neglect as a child StruggledContinue reading “Is BPD developed or not?”