Short note

I used to think that being unloved by the one you love most was the worst feeling. Now I realize it is knowing that you hurt the one you love and what’s done is done and you can’t do anything about it.

Most relatable article ever

I should just put this on the resources page, but it was much to relatable to not share. It is written much better than anything I can write. What It’s Like to Lose Your ‘Favorite Person’ When You Have Borderline Personality Disorder While obviously everyone has their own different situations, this one has been theContinue reading “Most relatable article ever”

BPD and Jealousy

One of the most prominent but also one of the most unhealthy aspects of BPD is our jealousy. BPD jealousy does not have any ulterior malintent motive, but rather more a jealousy of hurt and being scared. Having BPD means in our past we most likely experienced an event that caused us immense pain, guilt,Continue reading “BPD and Jealousy”

Yes, another update

Hey yalls! So I once again found myself in the hospital. I was having horrible realization moments and got so overwhelmed. My self loathing increased. I just couldn’t take it anymore. I got tired of trying. I was done with life and everything. I was so alone. I never before just had so much intentContinue reading “Yes, another update”

The positives of BPD

Lately I have posted a lot about BPD leaning toward the negative side. How about some positives? There are positive quality traits to someone who has BPD too! Even if you are untreated, you still have these symptoms and qualities! People with BPD are extremely loving. Our emotions are all consuming and to the extreme,Continue reading “The positives of BPD”

Is BPD developed or not?

There is still a debate whether BPD is something you are born with, or if it is developed. Personally I think mine was developed, what do you think for yourself? Did these happen to you for BPD to have been developed in your lifetime? Experienced abandonment or abuse when younger Neglect as a child StruggledContinue reading “Is BPD developed or not?”

BPD and the stigma

“Unstable” “Crazy” “immature” BPD is among one of the most stigmatized, serious, stereotyped mental illnesses. Unfortunately it is also one that is not understood well and is not believed to exist by many. There is not much help someone can get for BPD, and forget trying to get disability with BPD alone. The stereotype ofContinue reading “BPD and the stigma”

Life Update

Hi yalls! Sorry I haven’t been active at all! I have received my diagnosis of bipolar in addition to all the rest of my baggage. I got taken off on of my medications, Lamotrigine. It caused agitation and aggression as well as many severe physical side effects (none of the red flag lethal ones thoughContinue reading “Life Update”

More fun brain stuff!

SO recently I have kind of been on a visit and get all the medical help I should have gotten earlier kick. Today I went to the neurologist, which is loooooong overdue. He said I have PCS (Post concussion syndrome) and that I need to get an EEG, sleep study, and brain MRI. Having leftoverContinue reading “More fun brain stuff!”