Short note

I used to think that being unloved by the one you love most was the worst feeling. Now I realize it is knowing that you hurt the one you love and what’s done is done and you can’t do anything about it.

A long update

WEll it has been a while. I must admit I have been extremely low and had no motivation to continue this. But it is best for me (and hopefully others) to keep this blog thing going. Now where to start lol. I am currently on my way to South Africa to volunteer at the CangoContinue reading “A long update”

The positives of BPD

Lately I have posted a lot about BPD leaning toward the negative side. How about some positives? There are positive quality traits to someone who has BPD too! Even if you are untreated, you still have these symptoms and qualities! People with BPD are extremely loving. Our emotions are all consuming and to the extreme,Continue reading “The positives of BPD”

BPD and self loathing

SO its been a while since I have written! I’ve written many a blog post in my head, where I seem to be lost most of the time. I just simply not had the energy to write it down. But here we are, I am writing again! I am afraid this one does not endContinue reading “BPD and self loathing”

Life Update

Hi yalls! Sorry I haven’t been active at all! I have received my diagnosis of bipolar in addition to all the rest of my baggage. I got taken off on of my medications, Lamotrigine. It caused agitation and aggression as well as many severe physical side effects (none of the red flag lethal ones thoughContinue reading “Life Update”

Why I HATE BPD also more news :)

I hate BPD because it is NOT an illness, like depression or anxiety. It’s a personality disorder. It is who I am. It isn’t just my brain, it’s my whole body, my personality. I can not change it. I can only manage it. (not undermining anxiety or depression, they are horrible too and my heartContinue reading “Why I HATE BPD also more news :)”