I used to think that being unloved by the one you love most was the worst feeling. Now I realize it is knowing that you hurt the one you love and what’s done is done and you can’t do anything about it.
One of the most prominent but also one of the most unhealthy aspects of BPD is our jealousy. BPD jealousy does not have any ulterior malintent motive, but rather more a jealousy of hurt and being scared. Having BPD means in our past we most likely experienced an event that caused us immense pain, guilt,Continue reading “BPD and Jealousy”
SO its been a while since I have written! I’ve written many a blog post in my head, where I seem to be lost most of the time. I just simply not had the energy to write it down. But here we are, I am writing again! I am afraid this one does not endContinue reading “BPD and self loathing”
Finding help is the hardest and most difficult step for anything. Admitting that you need assistance and that you need help controlling your life. It makes you feel weak, vulnerable and less of a human. Whether it is sports, school, and yes mental health. I was one of these people who knew they had depressionContinue reading “Finding Help”
SOOOOO… I have horrendous anger issues. I thought it was just me angry and everyone gets anger but I just got angry more often. Since my diagnoses I’ve come to realize it is because of BPD. This is the part of me and the part of BPD that I have the most trouble controlling. IContinue reading “Rage Monster anger”
Why is it that I feel so strongly? Its awful. Before this, I was a emotion repressing demon. I felt things of course, but I dug them deep deep down into the dark caves of my mind. I never acknowledged them. I was one of those depression is stupid I can overcome this alone withoutContinue reading “Emotions and how they work into my BPD experience”